Vorteil Nachteil

 There's so many things I have experience being in school. I am happy to be doing what I am doing. Learning new things and resurrecting old almost forgotten things. Of course the pressure builds as I approach examinations that awaits. As somebody told me once, something gained easily will not mean as much. Though I must say, I do hope 'some' things I can gain easily cause I'm just too tired trying. You know, things like making the perfect macaron and baking the perfect baguette..haha.

Anyway, I found out a few things amazing during this first month in school. German students do look confident, they look poised and of course, when they talk, they sound really smart. They tend to be intimidating, mostly because of the sounding smart thing. My kepala will go thinking, 'Amboi! Pandainya minah ni, malunya aku sbb tak paham'. 

Me being melayu, stay quiet and only speak when spoken to, but I do have this certain aura of 'confidence', not real confidence, just that ' I don't know better, so redah saja' (those who know me personally know what I am talking about). Dalam hati seriau, tapi muka must be kept straight at all times..muahaha. I guess I am like that because I care very little about 'takut orang kata apa', which in this case, ignorant is bliss. Don't get me wrong, being a woman, I do get paranoid of fear of certain things like 'OMG, it is Saturday evening and there no rice in the house', that's because in Germany semua kedai tutup hari ahad ye puan-puan.

Aaaanyway, I was thinking, these students probably won't give a rats ass to somebody like me, tudung wearing asian person. I am pleasantly surprise, that in spite of their confident exterior, they do approach and ask me when they don't understand certain things in the lecture. That means diorang ni memang jenis lagu tu, kalau tak faham tanya straight. Sebab tu kot, depa ni nampak confident saja. Depa ni jenis tak takut kalau orang lain tahu yang depa ni tak faham sesuatu benda. Natural la kan, pi sekolah kan nak belajar. So don't worry kalau terasa bodoh, sebab kalau semua orang pandai, takdak la orang nak bina universiti bagai..heh. I feel bodoh all the time and something that I learn is that I shouldn't be ashamed if I don't know something, because kalau tak ngaku bodoh dan tak tanya, lagi parah kan?

Tu bab yang baik la pasal german students. We are all human, that means ada juga segelintir yang pergi kelas untuk lecture kawan-kawan, bukan nak dengar lecture. At the moment I belum berani nak tegur 'SHHHHH' kat geng ni. Mamak told me I should do it, but being perempuan melayu terakhir, I still practice, kutuk dalam hati sambil bersabar. I do vow to 'SHHHH' them if I have courage next time.

Oh I just found out that music from Jack Johnson is very soothing and sangat sesuai didengar sambil buat latihan fizik dan matematik. 

Ermm..oh before I forget. There's an advantage of being 3-4 days a week away from Mamak. Since I am away, he's been craving malaysian food. All these while, he either digs out frozen leftovers from our freezer, make himself cheesy toast, spaghetti or use rencah maggi. Now I am proud to say, Mamak sudah pandai masak Ayam masak kicap, Masak Lemak Sayur Omputih Style (sbb guna carrot ngan snow peas) and of course Kari Ayam, from scratch and without my supervision, ermm.. with my supervision aa but through Skype. 

 Snapshot from skype..

Muahaha..I am sooo proud of him.